April 21, 2014
I felt a kick..
Wait. What? No I’m not pregnant.
Two Easter’s ago- Kingston a sweet 14 months old our family was getting ready to grow in June.
But that didn’t happen and my June baby became an April baby and was born still just about 10 days after Easter.
We all sacri...
April 15, 2014
I have done a lot of reflecting over the last month/weeks about my life and the things that I have done, haven’t done, and plan to do all because of a baby..
But first I want to say Happy Birthday, Blue. Sweet baby Blue.
Leo and I went to his grave today. We went...
March 23, 2014
Ever since my baby died I’ve decided… really set in my mind that I refuse to be a victim.
Before that moment turned my life upside down I 100% felt that life is 100% of what YOU make it. What you put in it you get out of it.
Then my life tried to fall apart and c...
March 19, 2014
My mom used to say this
“I just always prayed that I would live until you and your sister were 18 so that I could make sure you were ok”…
I would look at her- in my teen years like she was crazy.. ok? Of course we will be ok..
It wasn’t until recently that I got what sh...
March 6, 2014
You’re a mom.
If he’s at college
If she’s in her crib
When their tugging at your pant leg… kicking in your belly
Or grabbing for your wallet..
You’re a mom.
When you explain the “why Mommy?”
Up all night
You’re a mom
When you miss them
When they are cleaning their...
Raising BLUE is having an appreciation dinner on Sunday March 8th and I am SO excited.
I literally can not wait to show my biggest supporters our website, talk about our vendors for Blue’s Pumpkin Bash, and ask them what they think we need to focus on for 2015 and there...
February 28, 2014
March- it comes in like a lion for me…
Roaring that ugly head- this is the month it all went under.
March 19th was the last time I heard Leo’s heartbeat- although for a quick second, “I, uh, have to get to two more appointments today”. They were never late taking me ba...
February 14, 2014
I went to a funeral today. I’ve been to a few since Blue’s..
It was for my friends brother.
Kingston’s been telling me lately- and I”m not sure why- that Lola is his brother.
I say, Kingston, this is your sister, Lola.
He calls her sis all the time.
But he ha...
February 7, 2014
I said it right after I found out baby Leo was a boy-
Leo and I had just put Kingston down to bed and I got to thinking..
“Leo, what’s the age difference between Peyton and Manning?”
He looked at me and we both just laughed.. pregnancy brain..
“I mean Payton and Eli”
January 26, 2014
Kingston. GOsh Kingston.
My sunshine. My “sugar”.
The baby that wasn’t planned. The baby I wasn’t ready to have.
Thank God for him.
He’s my Super Bowl Baby.
You know there is something really magical that happens when you stop saying why me and open up to the possibili...